i choose to be happy
If you've been reading my blog for a while, you've seen my back and forth struggle with living where we do. We love our home, we love the area, but we don't love being away from everyone or some of the more conservative views of people around here. We struggle, just like anyone else. If we were back in our hometown we would love the people, proximity to beach and acitivites, but we wouldn't love the traffic, the fact that the average home is around half a million dollars or that it'd be nearly impossible to find a house with as much land as we have now.
Lately we've been daydreaming of moving back, mostly out of my own loneliness. Blaine interacts with customers and co-workers while I sit at home and literally only interact with him. Until recently when I started volunteering with a local dog rescue every week. That has honestly brought me so much sanity, just interacting with people regularly, which is so weird because I've always been kind of a loner and never had any problems just hanging by myself all the time.
But lately I've been trying to make a conscious effort to just be happy. I am forever thankful for our cozy home that is just ours with a huge yard that will one day be the lush jungle oasis I long for. If my black thumb doesn't get in the way. I'm so happy, despite Kintage closing, to have the freedom to work from home doing something I love. Not only do I love it, but now that I'm down to focusing on one business, I'm able to make a decent living from home. I'm excited that I now have time to do things I'm passionate about, or just plain want to do, like volunteering, projects around the house and learning more about design and coding so that I can further my freelance career.
Sure, my family is still a bit far (my sister is REALLY far and that's the worst), the people here are still a little more close-minded than I prefer and most days it's just Blaine and I, but really I'm living the life I've always dreamed about and sometimes you just have to take a step back and realize you have what you've always wanted right in front of you.