Over the last few weeks my “diet” has seemed so much less like a diet. My cravings for terrible foods have gone way down, my frustration with not being able to figure out what to eat has pretty much left and I just automatically go for healthful foods. Don’t get me wrong, we got thai food the other day. Pad Kee Mao (sp?) and white rice. But I ate healthy portions and ordered it spicy so the dish I ordered lasted me 3 meals!
Lately I’ve pretty much been eating salad and fruit and while as I type that I realize the “old me” would cringe and complain about how boring it is and how it’s not fair that some people can eat burgers and ice cream and stay thing, the “new me” has been completely satisfied with meals lately. It’s just been so easy to fill a bowl with strawberries and blueberries or have a giant salad and not be upset that I “have to” eat like this to lose weight. I’ve been loving the food I eat and the way it makes me feel! No more “UGH I’m SO full” feelings.
It’s been so weird, seriously. I’ve been used to feeling deprived and upset because my metabolism is slow or my genes are “fat”. Those people who can eat whatever they want and stay thin? I don’t really know if I would want that. At least I am a physical representation of how healthy I am and I can use that to gauge my lifestyle and how I need to live it. If I were naturally thin I think I would just eat terribly and though I’d look great on the outside, I would not be healthy.
On top of my new eating habits, I have started walking nearly every night (some mornings). Last week I walked about 10 miles and this week so far I think I’ve walked about 7 miles so far. I always used to start running, hate it and stop after two days. I’ve only been walking for a week and a half now, but I think I’ll stick with it because it is pleasant. I usually go alone, though I feel guilty that my dogs are sitting at home. But I think I need to get into the routine and love it before I can start bringing dogs that drag me down the sidewalk. I took Roxy yesterday and she was a dream, but that might be due to the fact that she’s almost 11 years old (and still walked faster than me).
For the last couple of years I have fluctuated between around 165-170, usually about 168 or so. I’m just under 5’7″. That is not healthy. While I know that is not crazy obese, it’s not where I want to be. As of yesterday I am now 161.5! I have not been this low in YEARS.
In high school I was around 155 and I still felt horribly chubby then, though technivally my BMI was in the “normal” range. When I met Blaine I was probably just under 160 and then from there on I just gained weight.
My BMI now is just barely in the “Overweight” status at 25.3! I am .3 away from being in the top end of the normal status. I don’t know where I’ll want to stop, but my goal right now is 145. I’m about 16.5 pound away from that goal which doesn’t seem like a lot to me, but I know it’s going to take some effort.
So here’s to continuing my healthy lifestyle. We’re going to a lake this weekend and it’s my personal goal to come up with foods to bring that aren’t terrible. I have no idea if we have a BBQ or a fire pit to cook on, so I’ll rely on things that I can just pull out of the cooler and eat. Lots of fruit, maybe some trail mix and PB&J sandwiches? I don’t even like Peanut Butter, but I have to think of Blaine too and he won’t be happy living off fruit all weekend.